Setting Up My Planner(s)

I would like to say that pretty much everyone who knows me relatively well knows that I really like my planner. I’m pretty fickle sometimes about it, but I always have one in some form. This year I have two: Kate Spade Planner 2016-2017 This is like my “overview” planner. It has very nice monthly layouts and […]

Summer CA: Wrap-Up

I’m writing this in advance but…

Two days ago was my official last contracted day as a Summer CA (Conference Assistant). Despite being told that I shouldn’t accept the position and that this summer would ruin my health, etc etc etc, I’m very happy that this is how I chose to spend my summer. I had no idea this period of May-August would turn out the way it did but like most of the things th00at have happened to me in life, I have no regrets and I wouldn’t change a thing.

The people on my staff were almost entirely new to me which was definitely more than a little scary, but goodness, I’m so grateful for them all now. I’ve had such a time with them and out of all the staffs I’ve been on with housing, I think this one will always be my favorite if only because of the diversity and individuality it contained.

I think this was also the staff with the most bonding and it all felt the least forced out of the staffs I’ve been on. These people, whether they’re aware of it or not, have just created the nicest, most supportive environment to be working in and I can only hope that my staff for the upcoming school year will be along the same lines.

Though my role for the summer was more RA at times than CA, I thoroughly enjoyed my working experience as well as all the fun parts. I feel almost completely comfortable going into the coming school year because I just never stopped what I was doing and I don’t feel like I’ve forgotten the fundamental, or even the more specific, parts of the job.

Depending on who was in charge and how the summer was structured, (apparently it changes yearly) I would definitely recommend this position to anyone wanting more res life experience/a way to stay on campus for the summer and earn money without having to pay for your housing.

Would I do it again? Maybe. I did miss being at home and with my dogs and I really won’t have much of a break between this position and Fall’16 Training. But I don’t actually feel that burnt out, (surprise surprise) so I think I’ll be able to give a stronger answer after I’m done with training and perhaps actually feel the burnout.

For right now, I’m just feeling grateful for the experience and all the memories.

Julie

On Starting Therapy – Again

After two months of frustrating/fruitless searching, I finally started “real” therapy at the end of June/beginning of July, (thanks Michigan for hating my insurance). It’s been an adjustment and I definitely miss the ease of just walking across campus to CAPS – now I need to drive 45 minutes to therapy which takes a toll on my gas budget and my free time. But this was my closest, insurance-covered option so I definitely took it. Other than that, I don’t have too many complaints, I’m just not wholly comfortable with my new therapist. But that is to be expected.

We’ve had two official sessions so far, not including the intake session, and because they’re only 45 minute sessions, not a lot feels like it’s been accomplished. That’s pretty normal for starting with someone new though – I just have to keep reminding myself that she doesn’t have all the background knowledge of my former therapist so there’s no way she’s going to understand how certain parts of my life as a student at EMU are going to work.

All that being said – it’s going relatively well. As far as therapists go, I don’t think mine is perfectly compatible to my needs – but she is certainly not the worst or even close to it. And considering how mental healthcare works, “not the worst” is perfectly acceptable. I do hope that as we continue working, the relationship keeps improving so that this will actually be able to help me in the coming semester.

And hopefully I’ll be able to continue writing about my experiences. This was a little bit of a challenge – for some reason, my thoughts aren’t clear or organized when it comes to this therapy experience thus far. But I’m trying to push for that and find it somewhere.

Julie

Life Update: 8.3.16

Oh goodness it’s been a month. Let’s see what’s happened: Well my 30 days of BPD kind of flopped because I got ridiculously busy and then the executive dysfunction did not help. But it was fun while it lasted and hopefully I’ll do some more vlogs in the futre. We survived The Ironworkers (who were […]

Planning for Grad School: Part 1

Applying to Grad school is kind of like applying to undergrad but 100x worse because you don’t have high school counselors breathing down your neck, or colleges actively looking at you vs. frantically googling on your own in the dead of night, and don’t even get me started on how intimidating the GRE is, (also – why is standardized testing still a thing?).

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Regrettably, there is nothing I can do about it but suck it up and get it done because at this point, grad school is my only option and I would love to get into the best one that will pay me the most and give me a great position as a GA, (graduate assistant). As much as I am frustrated at times by my job in housing, I would prefer to get a GA position within that context because I know that’s going to be the best fit for all the skills and strengths I’ve been working on for the past year or so through working in housing and with my residents.

All that being said though, this whole applying to college again thing is kind of my own personal circle of hell, (though this has nothing on Dante’s inferno).

Thankfully, I have a few months left till applications are due.

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30 Days of BPD – Days 7-9

So the executive disfunction has been painfully real this weekend. I haven’t really done much of anything and I certainly have not been up to making videos. Which, is a fun part of my depression that usually hits during finals week making those basically the worst times ever. 

That being said, hopefully I will have some capability of making a video tomorrow.

Best to you all!

Julie 

30 Days of BPD: Day 6

Somehow we’re almost a week done with this?! How wild is that. At any rate, this video is pretty rushed because I was working/am exhausted, so excuse that. I promise tomorrow’s will be much more relaxed and a lot less shaky. -Julie

30 Days of BPD: Days 4&5

  Aaaaaaand we’re back. Sorry for the lapse in consistent video up-loading, my roommate and I had a lot to discuss last night. But now you all get double the fun for your waiting! Like I said in the video, today has been good, better than yesterday, and hopefully tomorrow will be even more exciting/fruitful. […]