You know what, I get it.
Relationships, of all kinds, they’re difficult – sometimes they aren’t worth it. And sometimes you have to take the easy way out in order to save yourself. I’ve done it too – not saying I’m proud of it, but I’ve done it.
So I get it.
What I do not get is the why.
I’ve come up with a million reasons but all of them come back to I wasn’t good enough. There was a point in time where I accepted that as the truth, and at that point, this letter would be sounding a lot different.
I don’t accept that anymore. I have always been good enough, and I always will be, as a person who exists and loves and just tries to live to the best of their ability every single day.
Does that make me perfect? Flawless? Someone everyone should care about?
It does make me a person who has the right to be upset when people literally just up and leave, without a goodbye, from my life. I don’t hate any of you, honestly. But I am still hurting because I just don’t understand why.
Despite the hurt, I want to thank you for leaving because if you hadn’t, I wouldn’t be the person I am today.
I’m still alive because people left.
I’m happier because people left.
I’m healthier because people left.
My relationships are more successful because people left.
I know who I am because people left.
I know what I deserve because people left.
and I know that I’m worth love, even when people leave me.
I hope that all of you are out there living amazing lives. You all deserve it. And I hope you learned as much as I did from our time together. I think that’s what life is about – learning from the people you know for as long as they let you.